I don’t know if he is oblivious to my pain or if he is just afraid to go there (conversation). Some times I am so frustrated. So alone. So scared of a future where everything is so broken and dark and scary.
I decided last night that I need a break from Candy Crush. It was making me tense, raising my blood pressure, and I was near (literal) tears when it told me I had failed. Again.
Josiah and I watched Safe Haven last night. Really good movie. I won’t give away the story line but there was some background tension. I felt it in my neck through the whole movie and I was physically shaking afterwards. I think I am living on the edge too much of the time and it takes little or nothing to push me over.
I woke up during the night last night have some weird “headaches.” It was like I could see, hear, and feel lightning sizzling in my brain. Never had one of those before. Halfway expected to wake up dead this morning.
Sorry … just having a broken day …